So if you really go the whole way and see how you feel at the prospect of vanishing forever, of all your efforts, and all your achievements and all your attainments turning into dust and nothingness… what is the feeling. What happens to you? It’s a curious thing. The most real state is the state of nothing. That’s what it’s going to all come to. And for some reason or other we’re supposed to find this depressing. But if somebody is going to argue that the basic reality is nothingness, where does all this come from? Obviously from nothingness. So cheer up you see, this is what is meant in Buddhist philosophy by saying “We are all basically nothing.” The essence of your mind, that’s how it is behind your eyes, is intrinsically pure. The pure doesn’t mean a non-dirty story state of mind, as it is apt to mean in the word purity, pure means clear-void.
By seeing that nothingness is the fundamental reality, and you see it’s yourreality, then how can anything contaminate you?
All the idea of your being scared and put out and worried and so on, it’s just nothing, it’s a dream. Because you’re really nothing. But this is most incredible nothing.
If you think of this nothingness as mere blankness, and you hold onto the idea of blankness, and are kind of grizzly about it, you haven’t understood it! Nothingness is really like the nothingness of space, which contains the whole universe! All the suns moons and stars, mountains and rivers, good men and bad men, animals and insects, the whole bit- all are contained and void. So out of this void comes everything, and you are it. So what I’m showing you is that all this hocus pocus about the fear of nothingness, is that, truly speaking, nothingness is what we want to talk about when we talk about the spiritual. Only, it’s all been ignored, it’s all been put down! You say, oh nothingness-heaven preserves us from that! Well, that’s where the secret lies.And obviously the secret always lies in the place you never think of looking for it.
Alan Watts.
Nothing really matters in the end, its all how you start in the beginning.